The first thought that comes to my mind is that I'm just thankful to have made it through another day. Today's blessing for me is God's peace. It's knowing that no matter what the future brings that I can have peace about it and not waste my time worrying about it because in God I find peace. It is in his presence and in a relationship with him that I can find rest.
One of my struggles I deal with is "not knowing"-- not know what could happen, not knowing enough to make an educated decision, not knowing enough to prevent something detrimental from happen or to put in motion the things for something good to happen. Over the last year especially I have wrested with giving up control to God and what that means in a real and tangible way. It's easy to say "I'm giving my burdens over to God" but if I still worry about the outcomes and future I don't think it's really giving them up. While, I will may never be able to give the things that cause me to worry or cause anxiety in my life over to God completely and never think about them again, I am learning how to have peace about situations that are out of my control by giving them over to our great Lord. I also think that when we "give things up to God" that are troubling us means we are supposed to never think about them again and go about our lives as if they don't exist or nothing has happened. Rather, I believe when we give up those things it's allowing God to enter into the situation and walk alongside us and take away the doubts and alleviate our fears.
My closest friends will know that my last couple of years have been filled with challenges, tragedies, victories and defeats, joyous occasions of celebrations, and that if I had somethings to do over I would probably choose some things to change. However, as I reflect over the last few years I can honestly say I love my life and I have been truly blessed by our Lord and by those around me. While it hasn't always been the easiest road or most certain and easiest to navigate (and for someone who likes to be in control, uncertainty can be hell), it has been filled with love and countless blessings. So today I can say with absolute certainty that I have been blessed to know God's peace in times of uncertainty and when that it is what gives me hope for tomorrow.
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